Thursday, October 20, 2005

The Apostle's Creed Hymn

It's finally PUBLISHED! Signed the contract November 14, 2001... but who's counting days, months, years...?!

It's in Hope Publishing's new on-line hymnal. Check it out and tell me what you think.

No, really..... please check it out. I see some major problems with their on-line format - one being that they are way too trusting. You can download a copy. But then it's up to the dowloader to come back and fill out the official form to make multiple copies and pay for that priviledge.

There are other on-line catalogues that you can look, listen and print out a page. Some even have the word "sample" encoded in the background. Some you can download the pdf file, but you can't print it. But to be able to print out the whole piece, you pay first. Here are just a few:
When you get a few minutes, please check out Hope Publishing's on-line hymnal and give me some feedback. I think their system has enormous potential for abuse. But I do realize that I am slightly biased! So I'd really like some "outsider" viewpoints before I write them a letter.

Also, they have no mention of any composer for the hymn tune when you click on a hymn to view the lyrics and credits. (I looked at several other selections also. No composer for any of them.) That does not make me happy either.

On the other hand..... I do think it's fascinating that I got this letter (the long awaited for over the past four years letter) that the piece is finally being published after deciding on my new intention to BE a working, money-generating composer.....

Here's to continuing the Journey... setting intentions and then watching in amazement at how eveything falls into place!


Sunday, October 16, 2005

God's in His Heaven....

Just a few minutes ago I was sitting outside my apartment, enjoying the view of the nearly full moon shining throught the branches of the three that grows between the windows of my apartment and the small city park that is my "back yard," breathing in the cool night air and feeling extremely blessed and excited about life.

This past week, I had a hugh a-ha moment and realized that I'd been waiting on my dream of "writing music and having people pay me for it" to come to me.... I've been waiting on it to just "happen"!

Well.... in 47 years it hasn't "happened " - mainly because I haven't actively and consistently pursued it! I've allowed other things to take away my focus. (... and then I'd find myself in a draining, depressing life situation.... well, duh!!)

I realized this week that if my dream is to be, then it's up to me to make it happen! If I'm going to write music and get paid for it, then I have to set that intention and GO FOR IT!

I've tried taking tangents, beating around the bush and all sorts of other stall tactics, while all the time "wishing" that I had time to write music.... and, of course, that hasn't worked.

This week I realized that I've done everything BUT live my dream... And now there is no other choice.

And that's how intentions are born. In a way, it's like Thelma and Louise... all other choices are gone... this is it.... "feel the fear and do it anyway" ..... there is nothing left to loose....

So. Just for the record, I would like to state that.... (ahem...)

I am a working composer, supporting myself by writing music and getting paid for it through commissions and sales.

(I hear the Angels celebrating... yahoo!)

Stay tuned for more details! In the meantime....

Here's to continuing the Journey.... learning, growing, expanding, stepping out... and loving it! God's in his "heaven" and in this moment... all is right with the world!


Thursday, October 06, 2005

Who Are You?

It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.
-- e.e. cummings

I love that quote! It came today in an email I received.

It reminds me of a quote by Mary Hoffman, Childrens Choir Director at Peachtree, who in one of those impromptu, side-track "lecturettes" you get into sometimes while working with children and youth choirs, said....

Who you are is enough....

I think we all struggle at some point in our lives with feelings of inadequacy or not feeling quite good enough. But the truth is, we are plenty good enough. It's just our dwelling on the "lack" that clouds the "plenty" from our view.

In working with this "good enough" issue and trying to figure out who the Real Becky is, over the past few years, I've realized that I've always known who she is.... It's just the "having the courage to grow up," to let go of the fears and feelings of inadequacy part that's kept me from moving forward and embracing her completely.

But I'm making strides and can feel (and see) the Real Becky showing up more and more these days. I also know that whoever I am is enough - whether it's 100% Real Becky or 2% Real Becky. Because either way, it's ME in that moment!

It does take courage to grow up and be who you really are.... and that's why I'm on this Journey. I want to reach my full potential and even go beyond it. I want to make a difference in this world. And I want to help others reach their potential....

And to do that, I have to be 100% Becky - 100% who I really am!

Here's to continuing the Journey... learning about, growing into and becoming who you really are!


Saturday, October 01, 2005

New Baby, Laundry & Practice

The result of an intention-setting, synchronistic miracle opportunity that just sort of fell into my lap.... it arrived yesterday......

My first Grand Piano!

And of course, DC immediately gave it a thorough going over!

Today was a blast! Sort the laundry and put in the first load, sit down and practice.... put clothes in the dryer, go practice..... realize the dryer stopped awhile ago.... practice just a few more minutes.... an hour later, take a break and do the laundry thing.... sit down and practice some more.... (repeat)....


Here's to continuing the Journey... and enjoying the miracle of setting intentions!